讨厌这样

平常不喜欢作弄别人，只是偶尔会故意激怒人家，想想，其实，骨子里是个极度幼稚的小孩，长不大。

有一定程度的任性，但是只会在熟人面前这样表露，所以陌生的难以靠近，亲近的也慢慢受不了走开了。

心疼有时他们要忍受我，所以想找机会使他们自动撤退，毕竟如果我开始依赖，该怎么学会过自己一个人的生活？

所以说，怎么尽是做惹自己讨厌的事呢？

因为，我不想背负着别人对我的期望，却又要隐藏一部分的自己，然后在不知觉中，辜负他们的心意，却又要嫌弃我。我讨厌这样。

慌张个屁

人与人之间的那种感情爆裂，搞的我好累呀。亲爱的你，要几时回来抱抱我？

原来什么事都不能保证有个永远，当初信誓旦旦的以为可以就这样好久好久，然后问题出现了，先是酝酿，争执，吵架，妥协，无奈。。。

有时真想自己一个人过生活，谁也不干涉，谁也不管，静静地过，可是想想朋友，是个可爱的人，她未必完美，却是个伴。但是很无奈的，成长过程中，那些误会永远没有人要对我坦白诚实。

最后，自己一个人，慌忙地向人诚实，却没人理睬。

给嘉琪的话

心情纠结。是吧？

隔了那么久，感情的裂缝爆开，人与人之间，无休无止的内心矛盾，猜疑，瞬间击跨你的精神。真的不能选择避开不喜欢的人，所以你才能在短短一秒钟，即狠狠爱上，也心痛放下。

开始长大了，那种疼痛的过程，一路上是不求有人可以和你分享，完全相信谁都是错。

所以老是出神，觉得疲累的时候躲在家里不出门就可以慢慢沉淀，怎知，心里的话无法说出来，就快累死了，难受死了，也要承受。

抓太紧会弄痛自己的，学习面对每个不一样的环境，只想让你知道，保持那些你知道，已失去就等同于死了的东西。

beneath your beautiful-labrinth& emeli sande

You tell all the boys "No"
Makes you feel good, yeah.
I know you're out of my league
But that won't scare me away, oh, no

You've carried on so long,
You couldn't stop if you tried it.
You've built your wall so high
That no one could climb it,
But I'm gonna try.

Would you let me see beneath your beautiful?
Would you let me see beneath your perfect?
Take it off now, girl, take it off now, girl
I wanna see inside
Would you let me see beneath your beautiful tonight?

You let all the girls go
Makes you feel good, don't it?
Behind your Broadway show
I heard a boy say, "Please, don't hurt me"

You've carried on so long
You couldn't stop if you tried it.
You've built your wall so high
That no one could climb it.
But I'm gonna try

Would you let me see beneath your beautiful?
Would you let me see beneath your perfect?
Take it off now, boy, take it off now, boy
I wanna see inside
Would you let me see beneath your beautiful tonight, oh, tonight?

See beneath, see beneath,
I...
Tonight
I...

I'm gonna climb on top your ivory tower
I'll hold your hand and then we'll jump right out
We'll be falling, falling but that's OK
'Cause I'll be right here
I just wanna know

Would you let me see beneath your beautiful?
Would you let me see beneath your perfect?
Take it off now, girl, take it off now, girl (take it off now, boy,take it off now, boy)
'Cause I wanna see inside
Would you let me see beneath your beautiful tonight, oh, oh, oh, tonight?
See beneath your beautiful, oh, tonight.
We ain't perfect, we ain't perfect, no.
Would you let me see beneath your beautiful tonight?

心疼

常常很安静，不是不喜欢说话，而是不喜欢在陌生人面前说话。对方可以给到我安全感，我就可以滔滔不绝地，不停地说。为什么安全感，在我的面前，无影无踪？

只能开始每天赶功课了，做梦的日子好像要慢慢减少了，没关系，我还是要在忙碌的日子里，充实地过。认真看待时间了。。。

也许还有好长一段时间，才能不会心疼你，可是也许，我需要的，仅仅是一次，够力的痛，一次就好。

little talks-of monsters and men

Hey! Hey! Hey!
I don't like walking around this old and empty house
So hold my hand, I'll walk with you, my dear
[Video version:] The stairs creak as you sleep, it's keeping me awake
[Live version:] The stairs creak as I sleep, it's keeping me awake
It's the house telling you to close your eyes

And some days I can't even trust myself
It's killing me to see you this way

'Cause though the truth may vary
This ship will carry our bodies safe to shore

Hey! Hey! Hey!

There's an old voice in my head that's holding me back
Well tell her that I miss our little talks
Soon it will be over and buried with our past
We used to play outside when we were young
And full of life and full of love.

[Video version:] Some days I don't know if I am wrong or right
[Live version:] Some days I feel like I'm wrong when I'm right
Your mind is playing tricks on you, my dear

'Cause though the truth may vary
This ship will carry our bodies safe to shore

Hey!
Don't listen to a word I say
Hey!
The screams all sound the same
Hey!

Though the truth may vary
This ship will carry our bodies safe to shore

Hey!
Hey!

You're gone, gone, gone away
I watched you disappear
All that's left is the ghost of you.
Now we're torn, torn, torn apart,
There's nothing we can do
Just let me go we'll meet again soon
Now wait, wait, wait for me
Please hang around
I'll see you when I fall asleep

Hey!
Don't listen to a word I say
Hey!
The screams all sound the same
Hey!
Though the truth may vary
This ship will carry our bodies safe to shore

Don't listen to a word I say
Hey!
The screams all sound the same
Hey!

Though the truth may vary
This ship will carry our bodies safe to shore

Though the truth may vary
This ship will carry our bodies safe to shore

Though the truth may vary
This ship will carry our bodies safe to shore

甘愿

至今，我还是不明白，为什么对谈恋爱有种不知名的恐惧。看着身边的朋友，一次又一次地参加自己爱情的丧礼，到头来还是空。

要怪就怪生错年代吧！这个年代的小孩，心智脆弱，禁不起一点的考验，有时我真的觉得，维持朋友，至少还可以互相抱怨而不会感觉烦躁。

可能自己太过自私，放不下身段也不愿乞求，想想这样也许偶尔寂寞，却也甘心。

新日子

不喜欢挑战别人极限，要就真心对待，不要就罢。

再过几天，开学了，希望一切都可以很顺心。有时看着夜空，不知觉地，犯困。醒来时，遗忘了昨天我在祈祷什么。

如果可以，希望我珍惜的人可以永永远远在我身边，不要因为受不了我而逃走，每天还可以让我看见他们的脸孔，一起微笑吧！